Wow, its been a while since my last post.  What do I say I LOT has happened and I don't even know where to start.  Besides the holidays, and all the mommy stuff that happens with that.  I did try some amazing recipes this year and will share them as soon as I can.  The biggest thing is that my sister was diagnosed with Brain Cancer.  And writing about that seems difficult most good days, not to mention the really bad days.  What do you say to people that ask havn't heard from you in a while, or what you been up to.  If you told them truth they would say how sorry they were for you.  Which is nice at times but after a while you would just rather be left alone.  Because in my case, I am still just walking around wondering all the what ifs.........and most of all what am I going to do.............what do I say?  Is there a big answering god that I can just ask the real question??????  why is all of this happening?, why her?  Sure she isn't perfect, and yeah she has issues....but really why?

So its been a couple of months of those questions and really I don't have any answers.  I still walk around with this glazed look like everything is ok with me.  But deep down inside, I am still just crying my eyes out for my best freind in the whole world....my sister.